I wonder why lately I am loosing the emotional balance at the drop of the hat. Is it that I have over-valued people & under-valued my own self or is it the infinite expectations I hold from each of them? I am hurting those whom I treasure the most at no fault of theirs. I wish to right all the wrongs!!
I recognize I am seeking too much perfection from people which has become the cause of my misery. It is incapacitating my performance & my peace of mind. I wish to address all the inner questions which are still unanswered. I am alienating myself from this flashy, selfish & capricious world.
I desire to change my attitude from ‘what is in for me to what in me is for it?’ I need to discover something meanwhile, something from the deepest fold of my being, something that will be a revelation to me. I believe that as long as I am determined, life will be fair to me. After all, it has never failed me!!
I will let go & let God in to reconnect with my own self. God is with me & not against me. Why do I have doubt in my faith & faith in my doubt? I am anticipating a new dawn which will take away all the baggage & return me my real self!!
Soon I will let things go like a bungee jumper who goes to the edge of the cliff & spreads his arms to dive into the valley, to breathe the fresh air, to experience life & death simultaneously! Everything I desire & deserve will soon come to me because I HAVE FAITH IN MY FAITH!!
